So I haven’t written an entry in a while, I’ve been so busy since getting back from RAAM, work, working out, appointments, I try to keep myself busy so as not to be sad. The good news is I have lost 66lbs in my quest for fitness or maybe it’s less FATNESS? I have been dropping about 4 lbs per week with my diet and exercise regimen. I did fall off the boat slightly, on Thursday night I was so hungry I went thru the Popeye’s drive thru and had rice and beans–no the worst thing in the world, but I still felt a little bad. Wait did I mention I had TWO of those rice and beans! I guess if I had to cheat, that’s not the worst thing in the world.
I am happy with my progress thus far, I am now committed to losing 100lbs, I mean I can literally see it around the corner. I so want to do this, I don’t know why, I look back at my pictures now and I can’t believe how heavy I was. Not that I am so svelt right now, but the difference between now and then is marked. I really never want to be that person again, I am confident that I won’t be, I have worked too hard to get to where I am now.
GK and I are starting Crossfit on Tuesday. I don’t know if I am exactly looking forward to it, as I hear so many good things about Crossfit, but the one thing I hear is how tough it is. I really want to lose this belly fat, so I figure might as well take it up a notch! As GK says, ‘we’ll see.’ As they say if it doesn’t kill you it makes you stronger, ‘we’ll see.’
On the home front it’s been getting easier, since she has been gone it’s been easier, it gets easier each day, but it still sucks to come home to a big empty house. Of course I still have the 2 cats and the dog but they don’t TALK! But then I have to say to myself well she didn’t talk much either, but I guess I liked knowing she was here. I have to move pass that now and move forward. I have good days and bad, mostly good. Michael was telling me just to put all my energy into working out and getting healthy, which I have been doing. I am in the gym 6 or 7 days a week, this week 7, dying to see what I weigh when I weigh in tomorrow.
Working out keeps my mind off things, and I am so surprised how much I look forward to it. Michael was telling me that is the best part of his day and I used to laugh, but know I can definitely empathize with him. I enjoy working out with GK also, she does motivate me, but I motivate her more–she’s a good ‘gym wife.’ I fear that will always be what she is–my ‘gym wife.’ It’s probably better that way, because I would only ending up driving her crazy–then I’d lose her also! C’est la vie, plenty of fish in the sea!
I finally got home last night and Thursday night, but when I got home I was SO BORED–I had nothing to do! I was so bored, more than usual. I definitely have to meet someone to focus my energy on. One of my big problems is that I really hate going out, I don’t drink, I don’t carouse, I don’t dance, but you should have seen me on July 4 at Governor’s Island, I actually can move (a little).
Anyway, that’s it for today, let’s see how Crossfit treats us this week, if I’m not dead then I will definitely let you know what’s going on.