STILL there are times

There are good days and there are bad days, today feels like a medium bad/good day. The weather is so hot and humid, I don’t mean to complain, but it just ads to the overall…what’s the word…’shittyness’ of everything. I don’t know I just feel so unsatisfied with everything that’s going on. I just don’t know how all this change will effect me, I am sure in a positive way but I still worry about things everyday.

Crossfit is going great, I really do feel stronger, those guys are hardcore, what’s nice is the workout is different everyday, and it’s always something challenging. We seem to be in Brian’s class all the time, which is good, I like him as an instructor, and the dudes is built like a wall–he’s got a serious V going. Again, if I ever looked like that I would NEVER EVER wear a shirt, or at least wear a shirt two sizes too small or perhaps a boys size–LOL!

I did a spin class at Equinox last night, I haven’t been there in about two weeks, it was weird to be back ‘home’ again. I just got home and I’m so bummed/wired, watching chick DIVING? WTF? We are doing Warrior Dash on Saturday up at Windham, that should be a nice workout, not too tough. It’s supposed to rain from tomorrow night until Saturday morning, so that means a nice and muddy course–happy, happy, joy, joy, I think.

I don’t know what to do, things are happening so slowly seemingly, but I am not patient, so I want them to happen quickly. I don’t know, I don’t know…

Rest Day today

We’ve had a really busy week, took off today–literally. One of the nice things about being a Realtor is that you are an independent contractor, you don’t punch a clock for the man so you make your own schedule. On the other hand because you are an independent contractor you are always working for your next paycheck, you DON’T work for the man so you don’t get paid unless you work! I had a pretty good week, did three deals this week and probably have two more pending for next.

G wanted to rest today so I rest too. Honestly I don’t want to be the one who calls it, even though there are days that I know I should–like today; I do get tire, as much as I don’t want to admit it! I have been getting a lot of sleep the last week or so, almost 7 hrs a night–which is a miracle for me, no mater how much I try and sleep my eyes always open at 5:00 AM, why is that? I don’t even need an alarm clock, they just open and I know it’s time to get up–even on vacation.

We had a really tough workout yesterday, I guess tough for the level we are at. One of the interesting things I have noted about Crossfit is that the workouts are never the same, it’s not like going to a class at Equinox and you pretty much know what to expect in the class. I’m not trying to dump on Equinox because I am grateful for what they have done and I love the facilities but there is a difference between the two. There is a marked difference between the two gyms, I liken it to one of the Rocky movies where Rocky had this really fancy gym in his house with all the bells and whistles, but then he went to Russia to train and he lived in a log cabin and had to carry around trees and pull a sleigh through 5′ of snow, etc; that’s the long and short of the difference between Equinox and Crossfit.

As I was saying the workouts are different each time you go in, each has a name at times, and then sometimes it’s just going to kick your ass plain and simple. Yesterday was squats and push presses 80 squats, 10 push press, 60 squats, 20 push press, 40 squats, 30 push press, 20 squats. Although the squats are air squats, moving your body up and down in a full range of motion anytime is tough. I used 65lbs for my push presses; I know that was a good weight because I was able to blow thru the 10 and 20 reps, but my 30 reps I stopped and started a lot. My shoulders were killing me when we were done, I was so tired.

G was so excited about the workout, almost ecstasy I would say, she loved it. It was refreshing to see her so enthusiastic because most of the time she is very reserved. I was so tired all I could do was lean on her shoulder, and attempt to catch my breath! As I said very refreshing…I on the other hand was hating the workout as I did at the beginning when I was working out at Equinox, I hate the workout as it goes on but once I have time to sit and rest and reflect I realize that I am glad I did it. This is how I felt last night, relieved and glad to have finished the workout.

I can see that G is going to join, I am also anyway, I was planning on doing it when I moved into NYC anyway, but even more so now. I feel a lot different after the workouts, they are hard and we’re only doing the BEGINNER classes! I know we will get better the more we do, so at least that’s something to look forward to. One of the interesting things I was thinking about is that we can do these workouts now and then try them again next month, since everything is timed, when we do the workout the next time the time should improve as we improve, so improvements are definitely measurable, not that they aren’t now, but in a different way.

So as I sit here watching the Olympics and think of Olympic glory that I will never have, I rest and think of the changes that are happening to my body now and when I am done what I will look like, I guess that would be my own personal ‘Olympics’ so to speak.